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- ReDeemer
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Staring Death In The Face
For the Pain I've beared - DIE
For the Love I've lost - BURN
For the Anger that has risen - SUFFER
For the Lust that I've fallen to - BLEED
For the Days I've spent dying - KILL
For the Lives I've ended - DEATH
For the People I've hurt - REAP
For the Time I've wasted - ABOLISH
So be it - The ending nightmare
That has sought out to become my vision
A welcoming greet from the Devil himself
To burn for eternity in the pits of Hell
The curtain call ends this game
that I've played for long enough
now that I'm staring death in the face
I'll die for all the sins I have caused
I've lost it all - Loved ones and all
time to face death itself
O Cometh, great Fallen Angel of Death
and take me below to the fires of Hell
For the Pain I've beared - DIE
For the Love I've lost - BURN
For the Anger that has risen - SUFFER
For the Lust that I've fallen to - BLEED
For the Days I've spent dying - KILL
For the Lives I've ended - DEATH
For the People I've hurt - REAP
For the Time I've wasted - ABOLISH
So be it - The ending nightmare
That has sought out to become my vision
A welcoming greet from the Devil himself
To burn for eternity in the pits of Hell
The curtain call ends this game
that I've played for long enough
now that I'm staring death in the face
I'll die for all the sins I have caused
I've lost it all - Loved ones and all
time to face death itself
O Cometh, great Fallen Angel of Death
and take me below to the fires of Hell
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See You In Hell
I rip apart this life completely
Hearing the bones of it all break off
Beating my conscious senseless of hope
As you bring me more to Hate
Stop I shall not in this game of life
As I start to unravel the secrets
The days of my youth are torn apart
Like the flesh I’ve taken from enemies
None will stand in my way here on
I’ll die before my own dishonor
I tried to believe what my heart had said
Now I bleed with contempt from within
My hands are soaked with my own blood
Along with the lives I have taken
Burning inside, my soul screams out
As another innocent falls to my sins
Inside…I cannot bare the pain..
The pain that I have given out
It hurts so see so many lives
Being destroyed by no other…than Me
Fighting those that have sinned aswell
Shows that I still have little remorse
With beating fists I take no prisoners
As I fight to keep loved ones alive
This disease I have become has spread
To those that I have tried to help
Bearing the thought of leaving it behind
Makes the sickness even worse to my mind
I have no heart left to feel love or desire
Just an empty space filled with darkness
I ready myself for my own battle within
as I leave my conscious ready to die
The mental beating cowers myself through
No pain being sent to feel
My worst enemy had finally become
Nothing more than a reflection of myself
My heart once had towering strength
Before the catastrophe had taken my soul
Realizing all I did was make myself bleed
I stuck to what my life was in for
I see you laying there beaten down
On the floor in a pool of your own blood
Into a wither you can’t move a muscle
Now you know how I feel to this life
Slaughtering my conscious as it falls to the ground
I remove the sword that pierced my heart
Looking myself into my own eyes
Brought a chill that ran down me slowly
But no more shall I hurt anyone again
I declare as I draw the sword towards your eyes
I hope you Burn in Hell motherfucker
Cause that’s where I’ll meet you in due time
I rip apart this life completely
Hearing the bones of it all break off
Beating my conscious senseless of hope
As you bring me more to Hate
Stop I shall not in this game of life
As I start to unravel the secrets
The days of my youth are torn apart
Like the flesh I’ve taken from enemies
None will stand in my way here on
I’ll die before my own dishonor
I tried to believe what my heart had said
Now I bleed with contempt from within
My hands are soaked with my own blood
Along with the lives I have taken
Burning inside, my soul screams out
As another innocent falls to my sins
Inside…I cannot bare the pain..
The pain that I have given out
It hurts so see so many lives
Being destroyed by no other…than Me
Fighting those that have sinned aswell
Shows that I still have little remorse
With beating fists I take no prisoners
As I fight to keep loved ones alive
This disease I have become has spread
To those that I have tried to help
Bearing the thought of leaving it behind
Makes the sickness even worse to my mind
I have no heart left to feel love or desire
Just an empty space filled with darkness
I ready myself for my own battle within
as I leave my conscious ready to die
The mental beating cowers myself through
No pain being sent to feel
My worst enemy had finally become
Nothing more than a reflection of myself
My heart once had towering strength
Before the catastrophe had taken my soul
Realizing all I did was make myself bleed
I stuck to what my life was in for
I see you laying there beaten down
On the floor in a pool of your own blood
Into a wither you can’t move a muscle
Now you know how I feel to this life
Slaughtering my conscious as it falls to the ground
I remove the sword that pierced my heart
Looking myself into my own eyes
Brought a chill that ran down me slowly
But no more shall I hurt anyone again
I declare as I draw the sword towards your eyes
I hope you Burn in Hell motherfucker
Cause that’s where I’ll meet you in due time
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Darkness
Darkness had fallen without a sound
With little means of hostility
A blackened sheet covers the land
For these escaping emotions have no chance
Awakening into this nightmare called life
I rose from my bed in a sweat
Opening my eyes I see nothing but black
As the burning day had fallen to night
My hands shook quickly as I stood to the floor
Trying to keep myself from falling
I clinched my fists as they had came
The memories that had taken their place
I fell into an impulsive aggression
While beating my fists against the wall
Feeling my hands going through the surface
As my anger rose to an inescapable rage
Bloody were my knuckles as I continued to punch
Making the wall into my own crater
Blood had replaced the tears that were shed
Staining its once white skin with my red
I pulled away from my continuing rage
Watching a piece of sheetrock fall
My hands fell down to my waist bleeding
The blood making a puddle next to my feet
I unclenched my fists from my possessed anger
Hearing the bones break in a seldom tone
Staring through the hole in the wall
To the other side of this darkened world
My head shot up as I looked towards the sky
Covered by the sheltering rooftop above
Though the hurtful memories that flooded remained
My eyes were dry, as I shed no more tears
Closing my eyes as I stood in my room
The darkness had started to consume me
All arched anger that my face had given
Suddenly changed to form a straight face
Falling ever so quickly down to the ground
My soul entwined itself from me hellishly
My body fell limp as it escaped from within
Leaving me to live through the pain once again
Darkness had fallen without a sound
With little means of hostility
A blackened sheet covers the land
For these escaping emotions have no chance
Awakening into this nightmare called life
I rose from my bed in a sweat
Opening my eyes I see nothing but black
As the burning day had fallen to night
My hands shook quickly as I stood to the floor
Trying to keep myself from falling
I clinched my fists as they had came
The memories that had taken their place
I fell into an impulsive aggression
While beating my fists against the wall
Feeling my hands going through the surface
As my anger rose to an inescapable rage
Bloody were my knuckles as I continued to punch
Making the wall into my own crater
Blood had replaced the tears that were shed
Staining its once white skin with my red
I pulled away from my continuing rage
Watching a piece of sheetrock fall
My hands fell down to my waist bleeding
The blood making a puddle next to my feet
I unclenched my fists from my possessed anger
Hearing the bones break in a seldom tone
Staring through the hole in the wall
To the other side of this darkened world
My head shot up as I looked towards the sky
Covered by the sheltering rooftop above
Though the hurtful memories that flooded remained
My eyes were dry, as I shed no more tears
Closing my eyes as I stood in my room
The darkness had started to consume me
All arched anger that my face had given
Suddenly changed to form a straight face
Falling ever so quickly down to the ground
My soul entwined itself from me hellishly
My body fell limp as it escaped from within
Leaving me to live through the pain once again
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An Ingraving Death
Here I hold the blade of blood,
Trembling hands with pulsing sorrow
Nothing to worry, nothing to fear
Just to bleed, death crawling near.
Tears flowing down my face
Eyes burning with each heartbeat
The warm sensation of the bleeding wrist
Now I slip into eternal sleep.
No need for rags, or towels, love
I'll die without regrets.
Falling to your knees, with sobbs
My wrists, not seeming to clot.
You grab my wrists and squeeze them tight
The blood running through your fingers.
"Why was this the way out for you?"
Why? Her voice lingers...
I'll be gone, sooner or later
The words flow through my mind.
Everything fading to black,
Without the right goodbyes...
Your head falls in sadness,
Into my blood-stained arms.
The world fading before my eyes,
I guess its time to die...
My eyes close
Silence...
The bloody carpet squenches
With the beating of your red fist.
I'm gone..Forever..
Not to see your face
Nor others
As I take my propper place...
Here I hold the blade of blood,
Trembling hands with pulsing sorrow
Nothing to worry, nothing to fear
Just to bleed, death crawling near.
Tears flowing down my face
Eyes burning with each heartbeat
The warm sensation of the bleeding wrist
Now I slip into eternal sleep.
No need for rags, or towels, love
I'll die without regrets.
Falling to your knees, with sobbs
My wrists, not seeming to clot.
You grab my wrists and squeeze them tight
The blood running through your fingers.
"Why was this the way out for you?"
Why? Her voice lingers...
I'll be gone, sooner or later
The words flow through my mind.
Everything fading to black,
Without the right goodbyes...
Your head falls in sadness,
Into my blood-stained arms.
The world fading before my eyes,
I guess its time to die...
My eyes close
Silence...
The bloody carpet squenches
With the beating of your red fist.
I'm gone..Forever..
Not to see your face
Nor others
As I take my propper place...
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Finding My Place
This world devours my soul completley,
laying on this battered matress for a bed
My eyes start to water, trickling tears down,
and a sharp pain takes its place in my head...
I stare to the sky, blocked by a roof,
like my heart has been for some time
Lifting my arm, I reach for the drawer,
and open, to find it full of cries...
The whimpers stop, as the drawer opens,
and lay there- a black encoated pistol
A silver bullet falls from the drawer,
and rests at my feet, staring with horror...
"No fear for this, pal"- I whisper to the bullet,
staring me directly through my eyes
I pick it up, and load it into the gun,
then slide back the chamber, and click it shut...
My fingers rest to the handle of the gun,
as I raise it up to my sweaty temple
Now all to do is pull this damn trigger,
and they will know what was my hell...
Pull the hammer back, click with a tear,
falling down to the carpet to follow
It found it's place, that small salty tear,
and soaked its sorrows below...
I look straight, and slowly close,
these damned eyes of my own
No more searching, I found 'My Place',
as did the other things before...
The gun accually made quite an echo,
as my lifeless body hit the floor
A large smear, with blood intact,
was scattered all over the wall...
I lay in a pool of my own rotting blood,
it's warm surface flowing past my head
Even though you cant feel when your dead,
that blood was sure thick to my skin...
Staring at the red wall in front of me,
it slowly crawling down the side of it
They all came runing twards my room,
my friends, and family too late...
I found it, I say to my half eaten soul,
My Place, this world I shall stay in
though its not like heaven, not even close,
I figured Hell was where I would burn in...
This world devours my soul completley,
laying on this battered matress for a bed
My eyes start to water, trickling tears down,
and a sharp pain takes its place in my head...
I stare to the sky, blocked by a roof,
like my heart has been for some time
Lifting my arm, I reach for the drawer,
and open, to find it full of cries...
The whimpers stop, as the drawer opens,
and lay there- a black encoated pistol
A silver bullet falls from the drawer,
and rests at my feet, staring with horror...
"No fear for this, pal"- I whisper to the bullet,
staring me directly through my eyes
I pick it up, and load it into the gun,
then slide back the chamber, and click it shut...
My fingers rest to the handle of the gun,
as I raise it up to my sweaty temple
Now all to do is pull this damn trigger,
and they will know what was my hell...
Pull the hammer back, click with a tear,
falling down to the carpet to follow
It found it's place, that small salty tear,
and soaked its sorrows below...
I look straight, and slowly close,
these damned eyes of my own
No more searching, I found 'My Place',
as did the other things before...
The gun accually made quite an echo,
as my lifeless body hit the floor
A large smear, with blood intact,
was scattered all over the wall...
I lay in a pool of my own rotting blood,
it's warm surface flowing past my head
Even though you cant feel when your dead,
that blood was sure thick to my skin...
Staring at the red wall in front of me,
it slowly crawling down the side of it
They all came runing twards my room,
my friends, and family too late...
I found it, I say to my half eaten soul,
My Place, this world I shall stay in
though its not like heaven, not even close,
I figured Hell was where I would burn in...
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- ReDeemer
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Unforgiven
The rain rattles against the window
as you sit there in sorrow, and grief,
Thinking of us must make you sick
you can't even speak of me...
Remember when we were together?
as the sobbs escape from you,
I was hurt in a way not spoken
thats what made me loose...
The vast future overwhelms you
yes, I heard this before,
You think I care for what has happened
haha..I have little remorse...
Unforgiven you are to my heart
the memories shall remain,
The crimson blade pierced my heart
and unto my feelings were slain...
Scrambling to fix your appearance
not thinking of me with repentness,
Look in the mirror, and what do you see?
A plain figure, souless, heartless...
You took my heart away from me
and never even give a care,
Oh thats right, I almost forgot-
You've got better things to share...
Look at me close, and realize
im not one to be toyed with,
I'll soon find out, everything
and in front of everyone, exploit it...
Now, do you understand my love
your heart, im trying to lead?
No ones safe without the truth-
because all you'll do is bleed...
The rain rattles against the window
as you sit there in sorrow, and grief,
Thinking of us must make you sick
you can't even speak of me...
Remember when we were together?
as the sobbs escape from you,
I was hurt in a way not spoken
thats what made me loose...
The vast future overwhelms you
yes, I heard this before,
You think I care for what has happened
haha..I have little remorse...
Unforgiven you are to my heart
the memories shall remain,
The crimson blade pierced my heart
and unto my feelings were slain...
Scrambling to fix your appearance
not thinking of me with repentness,
Look in the mirror, and what do you see?
A plain figure, souless, heartless...
You took my heart away from me
and never even give a care,
Oh thats right, I almost forgot-
You've got better things to share...
Look at me close, and realize
im not one to be toyed with,
I'll soon find out, everything
and in front of everyone, exploit it...
Now, do you understand my love
your heart, im trying to lead?
No ones safe without the truth-
because all you'll do is bleed...
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My Prison
Sitting here, typing this poem,
makes me feel more alive
I feel like I have no bounderies,
like I really don't have to hide...
There was a time, that was past,
where I could not eat or sleep
Where I felt all alone in this world,
with no memories, or dreams...
I felt like I was rotting away,
in this Prison of my own,
No bars or doors, just the fainted horrors,
like I was left by myself, alone...
Feeling this pain, I forgot about life,
and moved on with my own solitude
Never seeing the day, where I would escape,
from this Hell, and finding gratitude...
Though they do, they feel like bars,
keeping me locked up, and away
Blocking my vision of the worlds happiness,
Somewhere I'd like to stay...
Then came the light, which broke through,
the illusionairy grim and steel
Someone to get me away from this cage,
a person, for me, they can heal...
I stepped out of the darkness, and awoke,
for me to find a better place
The light shined onto my pale skin
and unto revealed my true face...
I thank you friend, for helping this end,
for clearing unto what is my vision
And helping me escape from deep within,
my own dark,once hellish Prison...
Sitting here, typing this poem,
makes me feel more alive
I feel like I have no bounderies,
like I really don't have to hide...
There was a time, that was past,
where I could not eat or sleep
Where I felt all alone in this world,
with no memories, or dreams...
I felt like I was rotting away,
in this Prison of my own,
No bars or doors, just the fainted horrors,
like I was left by myself, alone...
Feeling this pain, I forgot about life,
and moved on with my own solitude
Never seeing the day, where I would escape,
from this Hell, and finding gratitude...
Though they do, they feel like bars,
keeping me locked up, and away
Blocking my vision of the worlds happiness,
Somewhere I'd like to stay...
Then came the light, which broke through,
the illusionairy grim and steel
Someone to get me away from this cage,
a person, for me, they can heal...
I stepped out of the darkness, and awoke,
for me to find a better place
The light shined onto my pale skin
and unto revealed my true face...
I thank you friend, for helping this end,
for clearing unto what is my vision
And helping me escape from deep within,
my own dark,once hellish Prison...
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Blood
It runs through my veins,
And corses through my body.
With no remorse, It is shed,
Unto the nothing...
When my blood is shed,
I seek revenge.
Your blood shed?
Hysterics convulge...
Take this knife, and shed your blood,
Find your place, six feet in the mud.
I'll show you the way, out of this game called "life",
One way to die, without a fight...
The warm liquid falls, hitting the floor,
Your body seems weak, to sway back and forth
Lifeless, you seem, singing the hym
"Goodbye life...and hello Sin"...
Falling into a slow crawl, you start to cry,
"What did I do God? Why God, Why?"
I laugh as you prey to your humble God,
And turn away, black is the sky...
Look at yourself- dead in your own filth,
I was wrong about you and good health.
Looks like the Fallen Angel returns,
To take your soul, and proceed to Hell.
It runs through my veins,
And corses through my body.
With no remorse, It is shed,
Unto the nothing...
When my blood is shed,
I seek revenge.
Your blood shed?
Hysterics convulge...
Take this knife, and shed your blood,
Find your place, six feet in the mud.
I'll show you the way, out of this game called "life",
One way to die, without a fight...
The warm liquid falls, hitting the floor,
Your body seems weak, to sway back and forth
Lifeless, you seem, singing the hym
"Goodbye life...and hello Sin"...
Falling into a slow crawl, you start to cry,
"What did I do God? Why God, Why?"
I laugh as you prey to your humble God,
And turn away, black is the sky...
Look at yourself- dead in your own filth,
I was wrong about you and good health.
Looks like the Fallen Angel returns,
To take your soul, and proceed to Hell.
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...The End?
Maybe it is, with all the death,
this life coming to a close
Why even try and stay alive,
my sanity, im loosing the most...
I'm starting to shake uncontrolably,
my memories flash through my mind
The trickling tears flowing down my face,
a salty taste, with burning eyes...
Reaching for the weapon of choice,
I pick up a long knife, end blunt...
The reflection of the stainless blade,
soon to be covered in blood...
My laughs escape uncontrolably,
as the blade draws even closer
Thinking of my memories, of good times,
have no use to help me die...
Sweat starts to fall persuasivley,
as this fear soon turns to desire
I clentch the blade, and memories fail
never stoping death to aquire...
The tip of the blade, touches my skin,
as I start to slowly push in
I'll end this life, and never go back,
for the blade knows no other end...
I thrust the blade into my heart,
and pain slowly starts to begin
I look down to the blade in my chest,
and cup my blood with my hands...
A slow smile leaves my face,
as the blood pours over the carpet
I look up again, and stare at the heavens,
knowing where im going, is darkest...
I hit the floor with a small thud,
and look at my own disgrace
"Finally, this will all end here",
and never the hardship I shall face...
I die, slow, but not painfully
knowing that it was intentional
Thinking about why there was no pain,
and accepting- death was eternal...
My body lay, in a pool of my blood,
with stained hands, there I lay
Tears falling to the earth beneath,
And may I now rest without pain...
Maybe it is, with all the death,
this life coming to a close
Why even try and stay alive,
my sanity, im loosing the most...
I'm starting to shake uncontrolably,
my memories flash through my mind
The trickling tears flowing down my face,
a salty taste, with burning eyes...
Reaching for the weapon of choice,
I pick up a long knife, end blunt...
The reflection of the stainless blade,
soon to be covered in blood...
My laughs escape uncontrolably,
as the blade draws even closer
Thinking of my memories, of good times,
have no use to help me die...
Sweat starts to fall persuasivley,
as this fear soon turns to desire
I clentch the blade, and memories fail
never stoping death to aquire...
The tip of the blade, touches my skin,
as I start to slowly push in
I'll end this life, and never go back,
for the blade knows no other end...
I thrust the blade into my heart,
and pain slowly starts to begin
I look down to the blade in my chest,
and cup my blood with my hands...
A slow smile leaves my face,
as the blood pours over the carpet
I look up again, and stare at the heavens,
knowing where im going, is darkest...
I hit the floor with a small thud,
and look at my own disgrace
"Finally, this will all end here",
and never the hardship I shall face...
I die, slow, but not painfully
knowing that it was intentional
Thinking about why there was no pain,
and accepting- death was eternal...
My body lay, in a pool of my blood,
with stained hands, there I lay
Tears falling to the earth beneath,
And may I now rest without pain...
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Yeah - Don't worry about it Shin - I usualy like to get some reponses once in awhile on my works - Thanks again man.
Damn...I really should start to write more soon. How about this-
How about somebody here who sees this give me something to write a poem about. That would defenatley get me back into the mood again.
Damn...I really should start to write more soon. How about this-
How about somebody here who sees this give me something to write a poem about. That would defenatley get me back into the mood again.
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Re: Bryon's Stuff
Holy shit, I was an angsty fuck 10 years ago.
I forgot these existed.
I forgot these existed.
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Re: Bryon's Stuff
Yeah, I tend to look at stuff I wrote 10 years ago and I want to punch myself in the face, a lot.